There's no real joy to do so, the cake is utterly a lie.
So tired of selfless toiling, yielding unfruitful life.

end.

the purpose behind my stories has all but been figured out

if you even ask me i pour forth like bursting spout

and as my hidden thoughts and even feelings i did convey

there's nothing left to hide about how my heart has melted away

it's lovely that it's simple how she so plainly took my heart

yet all so simple and so lovely and so now thence i must depart

since for my fears i hid and hid in secrets wrote

God casts out the fear and reinforced by her simple note

surely goodness and mercy will follow me in this life race

especially now that everything shines brighter, a reminder of His Grace.

-j

path.

in waiting for today we've taken so much time to pray
asking God to show us which path to go which way
both are tough and troubling and steep and narrow

but alack it's time to sleep and just pray when we wake tomorrow

-someone

i.

i have been so blessed that i think i am dreaming

i catch myself doubting that this can be the real thing

i cannot deny that this pain i have been feeling

i cannot compare to the joy that will be coming

-someone

gain.

when cloud are gray and full of rain
life derails like a high speed train
the world around us stays the same
and all the while we look insane

in searing loss is always pain
but something lost brings something gained
He lived His life He played this game
all so that we could cry His name

as slave's eyes look unto their master's hands
knowing no worth, we bow while He stands
so our eyes do looketh to the LORD we trust
until that He hath mercy on us

have mercy on us, LORD have mercy on us
our unworthy shameful hearts filled with malice
our souls abound with cries of the proud
but by grace God's grace does ever so abound

-someone

loss.

in all of the things my life's come across

i never imagined such a great loss

what can only be described as a beautiful token

only to be taken dropped and broken

such painful emotion can only be grasped

when something so precious removed from your clasp

the intensity of pain has crippled me to crawl

or was it better pain felt than nothing at all

from this loss comes much to discern

and although my heart is ever so stubborn

the greatest thing i'll ever learn

is just to love and be loved in return

-someone

hid.

we took a leap and put aside our fears

to accept each other in cheer and in tears

and with our doubt and uncertainty hid

i'm so glad we to each other committed

-someone